keep swimming.

I was meant to be in a hot, hot, hot, waterfront city. And I mean HOT. Not 24 degrees but 35 to 45 degrees. Pass out hot. Dry and hot. Or waterfront hot. Where clothing is minimal and wearing a bra is a forgotten habit. Walking about in a bikini top all day, every day. I was not meant to be in this place! Heat, golden skin, sweat dripping places. Forget layers or jackets. I want skin!

Nicaragua, Brazil, hell, California. I really need to work on getting my jeep. Sell my soul for a Rubi. Just me, the boys and a Rubi. top down, driving down a coastal road.

My hair has about 6 more inches to 8 more inches of growth before I'm done. So that's about a year. Half an inch a month. it's already passed my shoulder blades. Got to keep going! And then I'll feel more confident. I've always had a problem with my hair. It's usually boy short, dry, awful, awful. I can finally have a shower and just leave the house. No product, no blow dryer. It just dries, frizz free. Which has been a blessing. Who said short hair was low maintenance?! They lie!

Come on spring/summer. Need to get the tan going again. Got to work harder on physical fitness. Shrink my arms down a bit and the upper hips. Nothing any lower or I'm going to look like a boy again. I finally have fat in the right places to make some shape. Just have to strengthen the core a bit more.

2012 will be the year to remember, I think. Or at least a stepping stone to 2013. 2011 was the primer to 2012. Now let's see some colour this year. 2011 was when I worked on my internal issues, this year it will be the external issues.

Also, note to self, work on african drumming more this year. Attend more classes! Buy my own drum.

AND, not buy a single thing online for 6 months. Seriously. Since the end of december, not a single damn thing so far. I received my last shipment a couple of weeks ago and I'm, for the first time in a long time, not expecting anything in the mail. Except bills. Which I'm finally going to pay this year. Work on fixing my credit so I can get that jeep. Shit, I also have to drive to Golden, BC in July. I had better get my ass in gear NOW.

OH, but that might be a little harder now that I'm unemployed. Finally left the business. I've had enough of the garbage. I wasn't getting paid half the time anyways. And within 12 hours, I have had 2 possible job leads. It's good to know people in a small town. Or at least have a real respect from the right kind of people. I'm rooting for the atco plant job. I'm really, really hoping for it. The pay is fantastic, the hours will be perfect and it leaves my entire day to be used at my own desire. Met with the boss today, see what happens from here on in. /crosses fingers.

Take each day as it comes. I just have to keep remembering that tomorrow isn't today, that today is just a day and yesterday was what it was.