Hm.

What am I looking at? A wall. At least it's a purple wall. The only wall I had painted is now coming down. I'm going to make the best out of this place. My main floor has a lot of work to do but it's not expensive. When it comes down to appliances and fixtures, that's where my budget gets stretched. The ghost budget. For now, I'm going to make the upstairs a more comfortable space so I have at least somewhat of a home to come to.

I've torn down a main wall and now I'm about to tear down a second wall, making the upstairs a 1 bedroom opposed to a 3 bedroom. Why? So I have have a living area with my couch and tv. It will reduce the pressure to get the main floor done so I can go my own pace. I don't think that I'll have an actual house until next year and that bums me out. It would go A LOT quicker if I had the money but I'm sans $10, 000.00.

SO I will make it work by paying my own way and in the end, I'll be prouder. I hope. I honestly don't think I'd give two shits if I came up with the money in short spurts or if I got it all at once and then paid it off. The end result is what matters. I just wish I had started this project in the spring instead. But here I am, winter is looming. It's times like these where I wish I had a grandmother who wanted to be a part of this by aiding in the cost of the renos. Wouldn't that be nice?

I had a pretty interesting dream this morning... I almost wonder if it was prophetic... I sure as fuck hope so.