balls to you!

Today is better. MUCH better than yesterday. Holy miserable, yesterday was.

It got even worse when I discovered how cast blind I still am. I finally crawled into bed [which takes more effort than running a mile] when the doorbell rang. Of course, the dogs go wild, start barking crazily because the door bell never rings. I get out of bed, find my glasses, find my crutches and start down the hall way. Got to the stairs. So I begin the process of crutching up a staircase only by the time I hit the third step, I was in such a rush to get to the door that I forgot I was in a cast. So I used my right foot as if it was normal and NOT broken. I stepped on that thirds step and down I went. I saw stars of every kind.

The pain? My god. I can't even explain the pain. It turns out it was just girl guide cookies. I couldn't get to any change so I apologized and shut that door. That's when the tears started. I looked at my two boys who were standing quietly on the stair case, waiting for a signal, and I cried. I think that they understand how weak I am right now. They can sense it.

The independence that I need to feel is causing me more pain than good. So I think I'm going to have to suck it up and start depending on people. Reliable people. Jamie is going to be leaving soon so I might just have to ask my brother to stay with me for a while. I need to heal.

My wrists and hands hurt from the crutches. My body just aches. I'm sure my blog is just miserable to read. Haha, but it helps me sleep. Speaking of sleep, I'm so tired. So tired. But I'd have to go down 2 flights of stairs to get to my bed. Ugh.

The insurance adjuster called to reschedule our meeting from tomorrow to next week. I'm a little sad at the delay but I completely understand. So that's fine.

I have one painting left to finish and I just haven't had the motivation. I'm running out of time.

I really need to get back to work. I'm going stir crazy.